Tuesday, June 15, 2010

[commitment-phobia]


i was talking to one of my super good friends (www.isolationisadreamkiller.blogspot.com) last night & had an epiphany of sorts.. i have reason to believe she, along with the vast majority of young adults have an ailment worse than -scarlet fever - lepresy -lime disease -swine flu -chicken pox etc..

we all seem to think we want this movie magic sparks flying head over hells i want nobody but you loving relationship.. but anything that even remotely resembles something as serious FREAKS US ALL THE FXCK OUT..we run, very litterally R U N from it and never turn around.. until of course a piece of bait breaks our heart so that we go head hanging low back to what we previously ran from..

being our age is a constant battle betweened wanting to be loved and wanting to "do us" however .. "doing you" is a lifestyle choice that gets so stale, so quick.. as much as it feels good to have freedom, theres a reason men and women are on this earth..we are genetically, physically, & emotionally meant to match eachother.. and being single single single is a sugarcoated way of saying alone alone alone. we, as much in denial as many love to be N E E D eachother, not to say that we cannot function on our own, because clearly we can but on the grand-scheme of things a woman needs a man, and a man, a woman.

im sure i sound sickeningly old fashion for 2010 but i HAVE never & WILL never be all about being an "i n d e p e n d e n t b x t c h" .. thats super dead, im aware of the fact that i need A MAN not 10 and when i find the right one will have no issue settling down and letting all the others go. moreover once all that happens my old fashioned mind sees no problem in cooking for him, and washing his clothes, and greasing his scalp and all those other womanly duties..as i am hopeful he'll have no issue changing my tires, checking my oil, killing bugs, pumping my gas, grilling..etc.

however sum it all up to say commitment phobia needs to spread quick because nobody wants to look back and feel like they missed out on the one