ya damn right

I KNOW NOTHING IN LIFE

BUT TO BE LEGIT

Last Night
[well 1st of all i went to sleep at 7:30pm & woke up at 7:30 am..? idk but,] i had a series of R E A L L Y weird dreams.. and throughout the day i've been trying to figure them out & figure out what they could possibly have to do with eachother, or with the situations i'm in in my life.. alright so

dream 1: i dreamed that i found the other 1/2 of 1 of my campers best friend necklaces & was trying to explain that i knew who i had to take it back to and everyone was telling me i was wrong and i couldnt take it & i didnt know what i was talking about but i just wanted so bad to give it back to her bc it was so important

dream 2: i was in a H U G E mall at the vickies semi annual sale and i was stealing stuff, but then whenever i would steal something i would be so focused on stealing it that i would lose something else..then run around trying to find what i lost but the store was so big i would spend forever trying to find it, then in the process of losing my stolen items & bought items, i would lose my friends then have to search for my phone to call them to find them after i found the other stuff and so on and so forth..

[unfort. i cant remember the rest of the dreams..]

# 1 i think it has to do with the fact that lately i've been feeling like my friends were being kinda shady.. like idk why i've just been feeling like 1 of my friends hasnt been telling me stuff bc they dont wanna hear what i have to say but i dont understand why the telling a friend the truth is so bad? then some of my other friends i just feel like havent been keeping in touch nearly as much as they could be and like i understand we all lead seperate lives in completely different parts of the country, and during the summer the world.. but i just feel like a bigger effort could be made and its not like its something that bothers me like frequently or anything just when i think about it i really start to feel some type of way about the relationships i have with people and what they truly mean in the frand scheme of my life.



# 2 i think is bc sometimes i get so stressed out over 1 aspect of my life i completely forget about the others.. i focus so much on one thing and try to multitask so many equally important things at once that i ended up having barely made any progress.. like this summer for example, i've been majority unhappy bc ive devoted a l l of my time to working just nonstop balls to the walls money is the motive WORKING ive been to church maybe 3x ive slept over at friends 2x and ive been to maybe 1 party.. if it could even be considered a party.. and almost everyday i say i just wish things were different so i didnt have to be so stressed out , [which i think is where the stealing part comes in] & the more i type the more an dmore the dream makes sense..


my subconscious is one silly mutha fu**a huh

for purple mountains majesties above the fruited plains

i.
miss.
my.
sisters.

i dont trust you..

..but theres a 30/30 chance you prob dont trust me either

and not wanting to trust you..

..is different than being unable to trust you

camp photoshoot

But eventually reality hit me
Mentally,physically,emotionally
And I opened my eyes and realized
That I was still being taken for a constant ride

this is a gorgeous picture .. people say i look like her A L L the time.. & shes bait & all but i just don't see it.. #hm

but this is from my experience
& my conclusion only makes sense

theres a new sheriff in town ;)

n e x t p u r c h a s e .

i think it's really weird that i still think of you so often

crop top in my drop top.

Nah Nah Nah
I'm Not Saying I Don't Like You
All I'm Sayin Is If I Wifed You
I'd Absolutely Cheat On You

she stopped drinkin diet coke
now she on that coke diet

"Appear To Know Only This--Never To Fail Nor Fall"

... oh... true.

..i feel some type of way..
..i know theres no point in tweeting about it..
..or blogging about it in dramatic depressing detail..
..but i just don't understand when this shit will be over..

Please come getcha nigga, he's OD in my space

i've been debating back and forth wether or not i wanted a little couch in my room. this ended all doubt.

this song hits me s o h a r d every single time i hear it. no matter where i am. who im with. what i'm doing. REGARDLESS. if it doesnt succeed it always makes me want to cry it out. smh. only difference is ole boy in the video is wild fine & i was not QUITE in that boat :l

it really upset me when i logged onto my blog today and noticed i hadnt posted in litterally a week.. obviously it's nothing special but i L Ove My B LOg & blogging gives me such a calming way to express myself as opposed to my normal anger or tears and i hate that i didnt do it all last week..

i blame working so much and i KNOW the importance of money, and being self sufficient & all that but i do not by any means believe in "overworking" yourself & thats clearly what i've been doing.. last week alone for example i work 70 hours between all my jobs.. thats just TOO MUCH & yes it's true i did it to myself but i will never do this again.. i've learned what its like to work hard, i understand i'm being rewarded & all that but i'm young & need much more r&r & less work

i love how i feel about next year
i've never been this positive about anything
the Lawd must be growin me

i was just in a really SHITTY mood, and decided to call my apartment building and kirk on the lady for not returning my emails.. a diff. woman picked up though and i panicked at first thinking that the lady we'd been workin with was let go, or quit or something equally as horrifying.. so i talked to the other lady "Lexie" left a message for our leasing agent and was like "well maybe you can answer this for me: are there any 2 bdrm townhouses still available?" & she said WHATS YOUR NAME? [i told her it] AND SHE SAID OH WELL YOU ALREADY HAVE ONE RESERVED !

#baow.. im so glad thats 1 less thing to stress about.. then i sent a few VERY important emails.. printed some stuff out and i'm feeling much better! :]

campers cised me with the sillies

to the hunnies gettin money playin niggas like dummies