kiss me till i forget where we are and fall into our very own universe

maybe i think you're cute & funny

ya damn right

I KNOW NOTHING IN LIFE

BUT TO BE LEGIT

Last Night
[well 1st of all i went to sleep at 7:30pm & woke up at 7:30 am..? idk but,] i had a series of R E A L L Y weird dreams.. and throughout the day i've been trying to figure them out & figure out what they could possibly have to do with eachother, or with the situations i'm in in my life.. alright so

dream 1: i dreamed that i found the other 1/2 of 1 of my campers best friend necklaces & was trying to explain that i knew who i had to take it back to and everyone was telling me i was wrong and i couldnt take it & i didnt know what i was talking about but i just wanted so bad to give it back to her bc it was so important

dream 2: i was in a H U G E mall at the vickies semi annual sale and i was stealing stuff, but then whenever i would steal something i would be so focused on stealing it that i would lose something else..then run around trying to find what i lost but the store was so big i would spend forever trying to find it, then in the process of losing my stolen items & bought items, i would lose my friends then have to search for my phone to call them to find them after i found the other stuff and so on and so forth..

[unfort. i cant remember the rest of the dreams..]

# 1 i think it has to do with the fact that lately i've been feeling like my friends were being kinda shady.. like idk why i've just been feeling like 1 of my friends hasnt been telling me stuff bc they dont wanna hear what i have to say but i dont understand why the telling a friend the truth is so bad? then some of my other friends i just feel like havent been keeping in touch nearly as much as they could be and like i understand we all lead seperate lives in completely different parts of the country, and during the summer the world.. but i just feel like a bigger effort could be made and its not like its something that bothers me like frequently or anything just when i think about it i really start to feel some type of way about the relationships i have with people and what they truly mean in the frand scheme of my life.



# 2 i think is bc sometimes i get so stressed out over 1 aspect of my life i completely forget about the others.. i focus so much on one thing and try to multitask so many equally important things at once that i ended up having barely made any progress.. like this summer for example, i've been majority unhappy bc ive devoted a l l of my time to working just nonstop balls to the walls money is the motive WORKING ive been to church maybe 3x ive slept over at friends 2x and ive been to maybe 1 party.. if it could even be considered a party.. and almost everyday i say i just wish things were different so i didnt have to be so stressed out , [which i think is where the stealing part comes in] & the more i type the more an dmore the dream makes sense..


my subconscious is one silly mutha fu**a huh

for purple mountains majesties above the fruited plains

i.
miss.
my.
sisters.

i dont trust you..

..but theres a 30/30 chance you prob dont trust me either

and not wanting to trust you..

..is different than being unable to trust you

camp photoshoot

But eventually reality hit me
Mentally,physically,emotionally
And I opened my eyes and realized
That I was still being taken for a constant ride

this is a gorgeous picture .. people say i look like her A L L the time.. & shes bait & all but i just don't see it.. #hm

but this is from my experience
& my conclusion only makes sense

theres a new sheriff in town ;)